how can you be so heartless?

WARNING: You won't like me when I'm furious! and you won't like reading this.

No, this isn't about the song. it's about the rhythm of my heart. Tell me, to a forgiving heart when will enough be enough? How do you know? How do you it is time to stop forgiving (or maybe forgive still) but time to start forgetting. Why can one person be so insensitive? Why do other people try to take advantage and not EVER realize your worth? To them, it seems as if it is totally fine to play with your emotions. with your heart. In fact, that should never ever happen. How come there are people who does not see through you? Do they really think everything is just about themselves? That there is absolutely no other side of the story? That people should ONLY AND ONLY consider their own limits? To you reading this, people like them exist. THEY DO. They exist in this perfectly unfair world and will try to suck the life out of you. And im warning you. Please do avoid them.

And if you are one of them, PLEASE IM DOWN ON MY KNEES BEGGING YOU TO STOP IT. Change for the better and do all of us a big favor. Stop hurting people who cares for you because there will come a point in their lives that they'll realize you are THAT kind of person. Stop being a pain in the a**. Stop making me curse but allow me to. No one is stopping me because I have reached that point. I am in the peak of my anger and I am hurt TOO MUCH. F*CK YOU! And yes, M*R*N me for realizing just now. BULLSH*T! You dirty little piece of CR*P!!!

There, there I said it. I don't get to ask for forgiveness for blogging about this because you sure as hell do not deserve it. I trusted you with my emotions and you don't get to play with it like it's some f*ckin' toy and not feel bad and guilty about it! Not anymore. Not a chance, not a bit! And never ever in my heart will you find forgiveness with me.

After tonight, I get to sleep well. I hope you don't a**hole!

my Lenten abstinence

"Dust you are and to dust you shall return"

This is the day wherein we are reminded of our mortality. Ministers rub lightly with ashes our foreheads forming the sign of the cross signifying our mortal life - Ash Wednesday. Actually, on this day Christians (Catholics) are easily identified among crowds (aside from the Indians' red dots). It marks the start of Lenten Season. Hence, it's FASTING time. So, here's my unusual abstinence for this year's Lent.

Along with the rise of new technologies and advancement of the world, I thought of fasting for Facebook. Funny how fasting and abstinence can also "upgrade".

Seriously.

They say one should do fasting for those things that do harm to your life. And I say, lately Facebook is the root of all evil in my life. It wastes my time. I easily get hooked up with it. It is also an avenue for me to play Little Miss Lucy! name it. Pride. Proud. Judgmental. Envy. Irrational. I know I know, I have a LOT of issues.

There goes my religious side. I'm not religious BTW. Just spiritual.


So, day 1 and 2 is over. Facebook fasting lasts 40 days. hmmm.. ready, set, challenge!

How bout you, what are you abstaining from?

Heart's Day? im happy and loved. ♥

Before Valentines Day ends, I'd like to share my lullaby for the day. Everytime I listen to this song, it never fails to make me fall. awwww =) okay fine, im a hopeless romantic but truly, it makes me wanna go ahead and be inlove. So, listen and just take that fall.

Click the heart ♥ to listen to the song. Enjoy =)



p.s.
don't mind the vid, just listen.


And oh, it's the Chi New Year so:

Kiong Hee Huat Chai! Gong Xi Fa Cai! =)

this one's for you, Mister.

it's the Hearts Day everyone! What was your surprise? =)

I woke up early and got many greetings. There's a different aura today when I woke up not knowing I would receive a sweet "surprise" on the other side of my bed. I am really a big fan of surprises. Yes oh yes, I do love them.

When I woke up this morning, I went back to sleep again without turning the other side. But when I woke up for the second time, turned my back against the wall and woke up on the other side of my bed. There, I saw....

Dear ______________,

Thank you for the "surprise". Though I don't know who you are somehow, it made me feel good today. I see you've been reading my blogs (based on your letter) so I decided to make a Thank You blog just for you. I appreciate it. I hope you can read this. Thank you for making me smile and reminding me not to sleep this day away. =) Happy Hearts Day to you, too.

p.s.
i will try to understand the things you'll say.
p.p.s.
just let me know when you get things right.


Yours Truly,
Ms. StringBean ;p

dinner: early and late

In a day, I eat a small amount of breky, enough amount of lunch, and heavy dinner. I know, right? It should be the other way. But that's just me and that's how i roll. I have a thing for dinners. It's like my own version of breakfast. For the last 2 weeks, I pretty much had so many dinners with good good friends (homies, SHOULDERS, high school friends) and I love the fact that I am blessed to have good friends to share dinner with. yaaay for that!

One night, the minute I lay down to sleep my Sun mobile rang and I got an SMS message. It was Reina(homies) inviting me for Mcdonald's. Did I mention that was already 12-ish am. Nevertheless, hot choco with hush in the middle of the night is just puuurrrfect!

Just recently, had a date with Dyll and Hani(high school friends). Joy should've been there but she was sick. To Joy: Get well soon Joy! you were missed that night!

It was nice catching up with you guys! and see you again soonest! I always look forward to our "catching up" times.

good friends + dinners = perfect combo!



its me,
yenney

my pre-Valentine letter, awwwww

Tonight, I got the sweetest thing!

Earlier tonight, I got a sweet surprise from someone so dear to me; someone close to my heart. He gave me a letter through my cousin, Ate Kim. He told me how much he loves me. awwwww!!! My heart is just so so happy.

here's a sneak-peak of my letter:

Thanks Thane :) I Love You, too. SO MUCH. =) Ate Yen will always be here for you. I'll call you whenever I can and we'll talk on the phone like we do. I'll give you Freeze Milk, too whenever I can visit you. Looking forward to our date tomorrow night! Yaaaay, I do have a Valentine.

p.s. Thanks Cupid! =)

sugary pink and 80's

it's Sat-night and i'm on LSS-mode.
so, i decided to dress up and took pictures of myself.

♪♪

And pretty soon all my troubles will pass
'cause I'm in shoo-shoo-shoo, shoo-shoo-shoo
Shoo-shoo, shoo-shoo, shoo-shoo Sugar Town

♪♪

melancholy

i am a walking mistake. i am error humanized. if Satan was a girl, that would be me.




why do i feel like i am the meanest thing on earth? why do i feel like i am being punished? i am cursed. and i swear id give anything just to find the cure.


tell me, if you have lost someone and fought with your father for the longest time, do you deserve the life you have? do i?


:..............................................................................................(



dying by the second,
KGB

of casual talks, jokes, and laughters

Without them friends, I would have given up life.


Whoever said desserts should be eaten after dinner hasn't been to Dessert Factory and has not ordered Ice Mango "Dream" Cake and OreoSickle. uh-huh! My hush and me ate desserts first just to have some sugar rush before meeting friends.



After our chicken and fish dinner (because everything else on the menu is not available) at Roma Mia and nonsense chitchats over dinner,





we took our almost-forgotten picture. Monday night was friendship night.

Smile guys! till next time!










Thank you for making me laugh that night! =D

its me,
yenney

Cupid, where art thou?

♥ ♥ ♥ iz zi love month ei ♥ ♥ ♥

...but here I am with a quote sent by a fellow SHOULDERS (my college group of friends' name). So, here it goes:

"at some point, you will realize that you have done too much already for someone, that the only next possible step to do, is to leave them alone." -anonymous


...and I might be spending V-day sleeping whole day or something else boring. how uncool. This year, I have to pass on those Shakespearean ala Romeo&Juliet rendezvous.

Cupid, where art thou?